Jealousy can become a second-nature emotion if you are anything like me. You fixate on something that you do not like about yourself or about your life, and you longingly (and even angrily) look at others that have what you want.
I struggled with this over this weekend. I didn’t talk to God about it, because I was ashamed of the things I was jealousof and longing for. Then I asked God what He wanted me to learn before I read the Bible. I opened up to 1 Corinthians 3. Check this out.
“… for you are still controlled by your sinful nature. You are jealous of one another and quarrel with each other… aren’t you living like the people of the world?”
Here is the prayer I wrote after reading this. It greatly helped me last night, I hope it helps you as well!
Please, Jesus, convict my heart of this truth – that You have made me and my body fearfully and perfectly. I am healthy. I am beautiful. The world may desire something else, but I was not created for the pleasure of the world. I was not created to be physically admired by many. My true, unmistakable, and never-ending beauty comes from within, from the Holy Spirit giving life to my eyes and warmth to my smile, from the Holy Spirit giving me the validation I need and instilling the confidence to feel comfortable in my own skin, from the Holy Spirit revealing a true, vulnerable, and beautiful heart. In Jesus name, I rebuke this jealousy and insecurity. Your work is flawless, and You are my loving Creator. I am Your masterpiece, help me to see nothing but that. Amen.
P.S. if you have commented or e-mailed me and I have not gotten back to you yet, please forgive me. I care very deeply about everything you have to say. Ethan and I have been going through the most insane month of our lives. I will give more details later!! I truly hope you all are doing well. Praying for you!!