“But if you carefully obey his voice and do all that I say, then I will be an enemy to your enemies and an adversary to your adversaries.” – God (Exodus 23:22)
I have found in my journey with Christ that he rarely asks me to do things in my comfort zone. Usually it’s more along the line of things that make my heart race as I have the inner battle of “man, I really don’t want to do that” and the Spirit repeating the task over and over.
But that’s just it, living with and for God is a dangerous life. It may not be in a put-your-life-at-risk kind of way but a oh-my-gosh-I-can’t-believe-I’m-doing-this kind of way.
God has asked me to pray for people MANY times. In public. And they have all been disabled in some way. I have zero experience with disabilities or the affect they have on people. I don’t know what to say or do that will comfort them or make them smile. I don’t know whether to talk about the disability or ignore it.
What I do know is this: I remember every person I felt a push to pray for and didn’t, and I regret it every day.
So one day, at the mall with my daughter, we were walking past a kiosk in the middle, and I see a man in a wheel chair and immediately the push hits me like a tidal wave and my heart starts hammering in discomfort and nerves. My daughter and I walk past them, I am so uncomfortable about this request. But this time, I decided to do what my heart was hammering against. I turned back around and asked the woman that was with him if I could pray over them.
I don’t know what I said as I prayed, but my heart hammered the entire time and 10 minutes after.
At the end of the prayer, she turned to me and said “thank you for being obedient.” I knew those words were just as much God’s as they were hers, and I walked away… more like skipped away, on a spiritual high of overcoming a fear that has been holding me back spiritually for so long.