Sometimes I forget.
I forget that I am a new creation.
I forget that through the blood of Christ, I am made clean.
My blemishes washed away entirely. Not even a scar remains.
No evidence of my life before Jesus is visible in God’s eyes. He looks at me and sees Jesus, because I am hidden in Him. Pure. Holy. Unblemished. Sinless.
All because I believe.
I believe Jesus is who He said He was – the son of God, capable of bestowing true forgiveness.
I believe He died for my sins, my shame, my guilt, my regret, my immoral decisions, my selfishness, and my flesh that I am constantly at war with.
Today, I am reminding myself.
But I am not reminding myself of who I am in Christ, but simply of who Christ is.
I have been struggling with such guilt and shame over my past lately. I will get random flashes of my worst decisions in my mind’s eye. To battle it, I have been trying to remind myself who I am in Christ. Of who I am now rather than focusing on who I once was…
But even that is not enough to free me. Because then I see the sins that I struggle with in the present, even as a new creation, constantly reminding me that I, myself, am flawed, imperfect, and desperately in need of a Savior.
No. I have to take my eyes entirely off of myself and focus my eyes on what God sees in me. And that is Jesus. I need to focus only on my Savior.
Without Him, I would be dead in my sins – the sins of my past, the sins of my present, and the sins of my future.
To God be all the glory. For nothing I ever do could earn his forgiveness, and nothing I have ever done or ever will do could separate me from His love.
Praise God that my salvation is not dependent on me living a life worthy of Him, because I simply cannot ever reach that bar. Try as I might.
But because I have accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, I am forgiven and made worthy and righteous.
I do not need to dwell on my past.
I am choosing not to dwell on my past.
Today I am choosing to fix my eyes on the Jesus. Who He is.
Because when God looks at me, He does not compare who I am now to who I once was.
He simply sees Jesus.
Praise God! He loves us so that He made a way for us to enter His presence. He made a way for us to walk with Him all our days on this earth if we so choose. Praise God that He loves us so much that He saw our iniquities and sought to reconcile it for us, knowing we could never do so of our own strength.
He loves us, brothers and sisters.
If ever you doubt it, you need only look at Jesus. Look at what He has done for you.
Do not let satan attack you with your past or present. He is only trying to separate you from the love of God. To distract you from your Kingdom work. To make you feel unworthy, powerless, and shameful. A person hiding in the dark cannot bring others into the light.
We do not need to wallow, hide, or punish ourselves. And we certainly do not have to allow the enemy to punish us. After all, the enemy cannot judge us for our sins. He cannot judge at all. God has not given him that authority. But he can accuse. He can mislead. He can distract. He can divert. But only as far as we allow.
Because we, who have accepted Christ, can be hidden in Him. We can wear His righteousness. We can live in power and authority over our accusers (Luke 10).
If we fix our eyes on our Savior and tear them away from ourselves, we can live in freedom. We can rest in Him.
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. [2 Corinthians 4:18]
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