It all began in the shower.
Scrubbing away at my 5 day layer of grease in my hair one night, processing through the day, planning for tomorrow, la la la, scrub scrub scrub.
“Pray for your husband.” The thought just pops into my mind.
“Oh yeah, okay. That’s super important. I should block out some time one night this week, sit down with my journal and Bible, and write out a prayer letter. That’ll be awesome… I really should make a War Room… I really should make praying for my husband part of my daily routine in general…”
Then it occurred to me.
I don’t need to make it an eloquent event, I need to pray for my husband. Right here, right now. Doesn’t need to be a half hour of my time and undivided attention. I will pray for him as I shower. As the Lord told me.
That’s when I realized I was over-complicating a lot of things, and consequently putting them off because I don’t have time for an over-complicated, elaborate new routine.
I realized I was being disobedient because I had an expectation of myself that was not of God.
Here’s another example.
The Lord told me to start teaching my daughter about the promises of God.
“Cool! I’ll start gathering scripture, preparing which promise to talk about which day. Maybe sit down together after school to go over some scripture together! That’ll be sah-weeeet!!”
That’s very complicated and I don’t have time to prepare curriculum for these conversations with my daughter.
That’s when I just started having authentic, real conversations with my daughter in the car, on the way to wherever it was we had to be. She started reminding me, “Remember you were going to teach me something about Jesus every day?” That’s when I knew she was getting hungry. And that’s because the Spirit must have been speaking through me and into her. God didn’t need me to prepare some great speech or Bible study. He just wanted me to be obedient and trust that He would move.
So, lesson learned. Don’t over-complicate. Keep it simple. Don’t put an unrealistic expectation on part of your spiritual walk or else you may never even be able to start.
Thanking the Lord for this revelation He gave to me, and thrilled that one more lie has been revealed and pruned from my life!!!